Quit Playing games with my heart

im back..

2010-12-02T07:08:00.000-08:00

so long neva post cause im busy..now im quite free la..cant wait for attachment to finish then i grad..yeah!!no more nursing life for me..i got a list of wad i wanna be in future..still pending..haha..now i hope my gpa goes up..if not sad seh..now im leading with a happy life..even my ex gal hurt me alot,its ok..cause what goes around,comes around..im in love with a gal but then still flirting..haha..oops!well,thats me now..huhu..sorry dear..now i miss my dad cause he goes haji..last year mum,this yr its him..this tuesday he'll be back..hope i can fetch him..k la till here,wanna go do my work..adios!!

down...

2010-08-02T19:06:00.000-07:00

today was not a good day for me..yesterday night sleep only for 2 hrs..damn tired and sleepy but my eyes just cant close..mind keep thinking about it..i dunno wad is it she wanna tell me...im scared..im scared if its gonna hurt me..i cant afford to lose her..im deeply in love with her..she's my strength,my world and my life..i won't want to leave her and hurt her..but its better if she hurt me now then later on..i dunno how will be my reaction when hear what she wanna tell me..after school then she tell..from just now i cant concentrate..im down..i want her by my side..she's gonna be my last gal..and among all of my ex,i love her the most..and she's different from the rest..dats why i cant afford to lose her..sigh......i just dunno wad will happen later..i have to be strong and face it..just cant stop crying..and i hope u wun hurt me again..i love you so much fana,you are my one and only gal..i broke down and cried..cause im so sad,scared and worried..hmm..k la till here i will write cause not in the mood..im sad..haiz...

lazy and busy

2010-07-31T21:29:00.000-07:00

its has been a long time i didnt upload..so busy and tired..dis year last year,dats y..many projects..so far from april till now,so many probs..damn alot..so stress..but dun wish to post it here..i dunno wads wrong with me too..have been hurting gals easily..bt im not that time of person who like to do that..i just cant control myself..then dat day soccer match,my team won!!..now i wanna work part time,but scared no time to study..haiz..then now got 6 gals liking me..im dead sia..i dunwan to hurt them..dunno how la..then i cant affort to lose her..i love her alot..she's my one and only gal that i love most..and she will be mine soon after we meet each other..fana is shah's property..hmm, k la till here..lazy to update..

head injury..

2010-04-25T20:30:00.000-07:00

so long didnt post...have been busy with my attachment..then today and tomorrow i didnt go to work..cause im on mc..got head injury..need plenty of rest..later i show u the pic..actually got one more pic,and that pic is better cause can see so much blood..then my sis accidently delete..so have one more but not so clear..if she saw this pic,she confirm shock..dun worry fana,im strong enough..and i love u..hehe..k la till here only..cause lazy to type alot..hehe..adios!!

im sick..

2010-03-31T00:14:00.000-07:00

yesterday went for my group picnic..had fun..then i accidently drink the sea water..till i fall sick..yesterday when i reach home,rush to the toilet and vomit..i rest and vomit again..3 times sia..then my throat like burning..and i got fever too..didnt go docter..i eat my medicine and fall a sleep..today wake up early to see my results..but then still havent come out..stupid!!i eager to know my result..haiyoo..then i rush to school cause got soccer training in the morning..when in the bus got one gal,she's sweet..played eye contact with her and she smiled..then she alight the same bus stop as me..and she went in the school..but i didnt cause saw yani..i and yani sit at the bus stop waiting for ira..she's late..then because of that we need to run around the field..but then neva mind la..one for all,all for one..then today i and my team mate didnt talk that much..bored seh..cause got abit of missunderstanding..and hope everything's gonna be okey..then when going home time,i saw that gal again..sekali she is one of the teachers in my school sia..my god!..she with the rest of the teachers..she saw me then i hide behind my friend..im damn paiseh sia...haha..returning to my love story..me and her so far okey2..hope everything's okey..still finding the perfect date for us to be together..hehe..and yeah,im addicted to lady gaga song-telephone..haha..nice ah the song..im still weak..but i force myself..still got slight migraine..haiz..hope i get well soon..same goes to my dear..hehe..k la..till here only..adios!!

i wanna get to know you more..

2010-03-28T22:12:00.000-07:00

at days pass by,there are many problems..about me and one gal..i start to miss her..miss chatting with her at msn..i dunno why all of a sudden these feelings came..im sure this time i wanna get to know her..hope i succeed..haha..fana,wonder if she realised about my feelings..neva mind..wait n see..=))

im in love

2010-03-22T22:20:00.000-07:00

last sat go bowling with my dearest cousins..then met my sec sch friend..ok2 la..talk2 as usual..then about me and the fana gal,i miss her..miss chatting and talking to her..her voice cute seh..she must be cute too..im in love with her..fana,cute name,sweet gal..hehe..i love her ready..how?..haha..of coz i want her..k la,lazy to type..adios!

bored...

2010-03-15T21:55:00.000-07:00

today so bored at home..maybe go out,but to my uncle's stall at changi village..can see chicks and even pondan..hahaha!!from last week almost everyday go out..haha..holiday ready mah..then today sha ajak lepak2..but see if im going or not..cause cuzz coming to my house..and i also maybe go out..haiz..bored seh..really searching for a job..at least got money..hope i wil get one soon..then i start to contact this gal name fana..she's cute..i hope i can try to keep in touch with her....k la,lazy to update..toodles..

birthday boy..

2010-03-09T05:08:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!hehe..yea..today last paper..i feel so happy cause i can answer all the questions..i have the confidence that i will pass my bio exam..yesterday slept at 3.30..only got 2 hours sleep..now still sleepy but so happy then cant sleep..the first person to wish my is my dear ex gal nurul..shock seh shes the first one..hehe..gonna meet her soon..miss her seh..then just now cp briefing..gosh!im in different group..bored sia..luckily got nad,hik,fika,and 2 of my chinese fwen from the previous group..this time i cant joke2 anymore seh..cause not use to them..nedd to noe them then can..after school,went to eat with my both adeq(syahmi and mimin),faiz,din and joanna..then after that went with firah,anna and joyah for karaoke..haha..its damn funny..i from dunwan to sing cause shy2,then i sing like nobody bussiness..haha..then went home cause wanna celebrate with family..yea,they treat me swensens..and yah,sabby,thanks for the cute bear..i shall name it boboy..hehe..happy seh cause at last im legal..haha..and to all my friends thanks for the birthday wish..=))

cant wait for tomorrow..

2010-03-07T22:53:00.000-08:00

im back..haha..so long didnt update..busy studying..today i tink i didnt do well in my PCA..like shit seh..then after that went to eat with my friends..yea,tomorrow last paper..hope to do well in my bio..cause i study bio alot..and yea,tomorrow is a special day for me..my Birthday!!!..

what i want for my birthday,is i want a girlfriend..haha..nah,kidding..i also dunno what i want...k la,wanna go sleep cause will be staying up late to study..so yeah,toodles..

may her soul rest in peace..

2010-02-23T05:11:00.000-08:00

lately for me my life SUX!!..many things happen and many problems..sigh..then firstly about me and someone..i noe u dunwan to contact me..but tak kan u wanna avoid me in school..see me only,turn away..i wanna smile at u also cant..i just dunno wad's wrong with u and what wrong did i do..hmph...secondly yesterday the soccer match..hell sia..being the striker is difficult cause defenders will go to u..tackle u hard..when i get the ball only i trip and fall..they tackle me..kick my leg..elbowed me..sheesh..lucky the gal that injure my leg is not there..if not she really get it from me..cause i played hard too..then yesterday had family prob..especially with my dad..haiz..dunno why he's like that..come on i'm gonna be 18 soon..i'm big enough..then today sad day cause my friend passed away..its a sad thing..some more on her birthday..its very2 sad..last time my godbro and godsis passed away cause of motor accident..then my grandma too..now my friend..sigh..gonna miss them alot..may their soul rest in peace..then during lesson time,my friend from c class can go off..cause its her friend too..so i also go to my form teacher and ask for permission..then my teacher dun allow sia..i'm fucked up and cried..then i decided to go toilet,asking my other teacher permission..then she allow..and shock to saw me cried..i run to the toilet and saw my kak aishah..i broke down..then she hug me..then teacher chase after me and ask what happen?..then i explain and allow me to go..i bring syahmi along cause its our friend..went there but nabilah my sec sch fwen which is my friend who passed away sister,was not there..so i and syahmi waited there..paiseh ah..cause we didnt know anyone there..then they thought im a guy..sheesh..tomorrow got bio test..mind not there seh..cant concentrate..i have to pass in order to go jakarta with my soccer mates..wth!!..stress sia..bio i got problem in it..hope i can do it..then today go home only as usual..the same problem again..makes me sick and tired of it..sigh..im really down...i just need someone to be there for me..someone special to me..='(

cant wait on monday..

2010-02-19T01:03:00.000-08:00

so long didnt update..have been very busy..then now school many problems..fight here and there..haiz..we year 2 ready..may not see each other after we grad..last year ready seh..then that day got bbq pit..only some people only go..but then me and my members make it fun..neva mind..march after exam will make it again..this time i wanna the whole class to join..celebrate my birthday,all the march and february birthday..then next wed got bio test again..i'm scared..cause i cant affort to fail..hope i will do well..then on monday got match vs meredian jc..that gal who make my leg injured is gonna be dead..its gonna be her turn..cant wait seh..then my friend sis adilah..may she get well soon..pity her..and nabilah,don't stop praying for your sis..k la,till here..cause i wanna go study..toodles..

i miss someone..

2010-02-05T05:20:00.000-08:00

today so fast friday..then in school was ok2..walk with my crutches everywhere..haha..didnt saw her in school..really miss her..cant believe she really do that..really upset and confused..whats wrong to be my friend even though you wanna be straight??..sigh...just cant understand these people..then today is ronaldo's birthday..hahaha..as if i can wish him like that..haha..then tomorrow is my ex gal birthday..haiz...dunno wanna go or not..cause what's my friends say could be true..but i guess i cant go too cause of my limping leg..yesterday dream about my crush again..fun ah cause its a nice dream..haha..but then im so sad cause i failed my bio test again!!..yr 1.1 i failed and i have to retest..now dont have retest but then confirm my GPA drop seh..like this medic wont want me..haiz..then tomorrow my phase test..im so scared....cause its not easy...hope i get a good teacher and i pass..lazy to write..till here then..adios!

get well soon shah..

2010-02-01T19:34:00.000-08:00

today didnt go to school again cause im sick..from bad to worst..just now go doctor..then doctor say that i got throat infection and tonsillitis..if by tomorrow my fever still didnt goes down,i have to go see doctor again..haiz..now so bored at home..dunno wad to do..then miss a lot of lessons..haiz..tomorrow i dunno if im going to school or not..i see first..cause for me if i can still stand up and walk properly,i still go school..like today when i stand up,i straight away fall down..im too weak to stand..from just now i didnt eat or drink cause my throat is damn painful..hope i get well soon..haiz..

sick!!

2010-02-01T01:58:00.000-08:00

today i suppose got 1 week mc..but then i still go to school cause i wanna study..then i with my crutches..use it till my armpit also painful seh..then during the bio lecture the 1st period,i start to have slight fever..then in class it got worst..38.2..then during break time i didnt eat much cause no mood to eat..then jean send me till outside sch and wait for me to take taxi..then when got home,i straight away went to sleep..today actually got friendly match..my school VS republic poly..stupid,im injured and cant play..hope my school wins..then just now saw her..she didnt look at me..but i noe her freinds look at me..she's different now..neva mind..if thats wad she wants,i cant do anything..hope she's happy with her life..then tomorrow don't want to go school..i wanna rest..will be alone again at home..haiz...faster shah,get well soon..i really wanna get cured as soon as possible..

in pain..

2010-01-30T22:49:00.000-08:00

last friday i got npcc camp..i feel left out seh..but luckily have my sec 5 members and some FOU..then didnt sleep that day..then jean called me..have been talking to her on the phone like nobody business..last friday was not my day..cause that person told me she wanna be straight..WTH!!..like every gals the same seh..same as my ex also..haiz.....nevamind if she dun wanna be my friend its ok..i cant do anything but to accept it..i just cant understand gals now a days..i admit that im hurt and sad..cause i really wanna try to forget my ex and have the feelings for her..then she also the same..haiz...because of many probs i cant sleep..then on saturday went to sentosa from school..then got some chicks but all like difficult to get or make friends..then my first match was sux!!!..i hate that gal..my opponent purposely kick and step my leg using her heel..we play barefooted cause its a beach soccer..then i tape and wear socks on my right leg also kene injured..my toe nail broken half..then my bone get in my tissues..then at there i walk limping2..meet firah,jac and my ex gal..action seh my ex..but neva mind..sigh...then the ambulance send my to sgh..Aqila and Ira accompany me..thanks gals..then have to sit on a wheelchair with my face so pale and so sick..then went to x ray luckily not fractured..doc say my bone get in my tissue dats y..then i got 1 week mc and i have to use crutches to walk..its tiring and armpit also pain but wad to do..then at night went to springfield take my bags and parents fetch me..see,thx to the bloody gal,im injured badly..cant go school and also cant continue my camp and even cant go for Ann's birthday party..sorry Ann,cause im injured ah..then now i mostly lie down..cause wanna walk still hurts..k la..till here i'll post..

random ah..

2010-01-28T04:43:00.000-08:00

today in school was ok2..yesterday get the year 1 nursing gal number..so damn happy..thanks to aishah!..then have been contacting her..hope to know her more..just cant stop looking at her..hehe..she's cute and pretty..then today meet her during break time..i was a bit shy..then went home with her till interchange..tomorrow hope to go school together..then tomorrow also got camp after school..hope everything's gonna be ok..then sat will be my soccer day..after that going to Ann's b'dae party..then will go back to camp..its a 3 days npcc camp..i wanna see my new cadets..then gonna miss her..cant see her for 2 days..then today in class during bio..something bad happen..gosh!i hate that teacher..scold my dear jean..pity her seh..she come to school just for bio and 1 hr lesson at yet she didnt get to study all because of that teacher..haiz..nevamind..im on her side..she's so cool when she's angry..with her cute angry face..gonna miss her too..cheer up jean..ok la..till here i'll update..

i miss her..

2010-01-26T04:44:00.000-08:00

today so fast tuesday..just now in the morning at small mac,i saw the year 1 gal..then she saw me and jeling..dunno why..then at cafe 2,when she wanna go out,i wave at her,then she wave back..so happy..haha..then yesterday test was ok2..then after that lecture i go out early cause got soccer training..then got new students..yea,we need more gals to join..they're always welcome to join us.. this friday got npcc camp..wanna meet my marines which is now submarines..haha..cause so long didnt contact them..then saturday got beach soccer at sentosa..dunno wad to wear ah..then after that going to Ann's birthday party..tomorrow got sports and wellness,wanna play soccer again..now cant wait for saturday cause will meet my nurul..hehehe..but then i want someone to teman me go sentosa..most of my members bring their friends or partner..then i like lonely ah..hopefully she can make it..but i guess she cant cause meet at harbour front at 7 am..its damn early..but i really hope2 she can..hehe..tomorrow jean dun have..so bored..i feel like lonely ah..cause cant disturb her n flirt2 with her..haha..but neva mind..still can msg2 her..haha..then my butch members said that im stupid..gals hurt me and i can still be nice to them..aiyoo..for me,i dun care..yea,it hurts but then till when i wanna be enemies?..im a gentleman ok..cause i easily forgive them..let me be the one who get hurt not them cause i dun like to hurt gals..i kind hearted ah..haha..actually about this,im refering to my latest ex gal..hope she's happy with her new boyfriend..actually till now im missing her so much..but i keep quite..dunwan her to noe..haha..let her say it first and she did..haha..so yea till here..toodles!!=)

Study,study,study..

2010-01-24T00:20:00.000-08:00

today bored at home..later going shopping..dunno wad to buy ah..then tomorrow is my bio test..i'm scared..i really die2 must pass..then in the morning going school with jean!!hehehe..then tomorrow got soccer training..yea,i will be released at 4pm..no need combine lecture!!=))
will meet my members again..yesterday didn't watch manU match cause i sleep early..i got migraine..and yeah!!ManU won!!Rooney score Hatrick..4 goals scored by him..cool..=))
now a days i lazy ah go school..need to study..i only go school to make friends,meet friends,disturb people,see chicks and go for soccer..lazy sia to study..some more with the big tabbner..haiz..but then these days had been study late night..hopefully i pass tomorrow..if not waste my time only put in effort..

study day!!

2010-01-22T23:12:00.000-08:00

yesterday no school went out with jean..went to study at airport..bt then we didn't study..we relax2 only..haha..eat popeye with her..around 3plus near 4 went to meet alif..then go lepak2..after that went home..then today not going out cause study day..have been study from just now..but wad i study some cant get in my head..now break time ah..haha..then last thursday in class was fun..especially the last period..haha..then i laugh2 till stomach pain..haha..tonight i wanna go sentosa the mix age party..but then i have to study..GAH!,i guess cant go today..neva mind,will have some more soon..and now missing someone..haha..actually missing a lot of person..=))

worried!!

2010-01-20T05:57:00.000-08:00

today so tired..just come back from soccer training...haiz,what's happening to my classmates also i dunno..misunderstanding here and there..hope can settle by tomorrow..then tomorrow school end late..cause replace on friday..yea,on friday no schoo...can go out with Jean!!=)
tomorrow got bio lesson..happy seh..cause can see her..cute and hot sia she..i love to disturb her..hehe..but then im still worried bout my bio test on monday..haiz..not prepared ah..then about me and my crush..ok2 la..we can mix around ready..today gonna sleep late again..cause wanna burn the midnight oil..after exam confirm my eyes like panda..haha..then today training was fun..i scored many goals..make new friends..next saturday got beach soccer at sentosa..yea,im in it..hope to score..now leg in pain..cause just now fall down in class..then soccer as usual..the striker always get kicked by defenders..so yeah..k la..till here i'll text..lazy ah..Adios!

boring...

2010-01-16T00:28:00.000-08:00

Yesterday sleep damn early..then today wake up early to go eat breakfast with family..then dad send me home first cause im too sick..then was alone at home from just now.bored sia..then they go shopping..hopefully they buy for me some things..till today still not in the mood..guess will study at night..

not my day..

2010-01-15T02:52:00.000-08:00

Today sux ah..just not my day..i'm so sad to hear bout it..Why its always me being hurt??...why?....every gals dat i love did that..just dunno why..what wrong i did to them also i dunno..sigh........i just dunwan to say bout it..cause its hurtful..hmm,going to sleep soon,cause im terribly sick..hope i get well soon..now still thinking about the operation..should i go or not..i cant stand it anymore..im too stress,confused and scared bout it...cause its a serious thing..hmm,luck is always not by my side..i wonder,why my friends which is a butch,easily get the gals they want..even the gals straight or senget,they can get..haiz....patah hati ah now...cry till no more tears to cry some more..='(..on monday dun feel like going to school..paiseh ah..being rejected its so damn malu..hmm,now i'm just feeling hurt,speechless and damn sad......cant think of anything right now..so guess i better go sleep..toodles..

tired.....

2010-01-14T04:58:00.000-08:00

Today in school was ok2 ah..damn tired..everyday have to bring that heavy book to school and bring back home..haiz..then sport and wellness was fun..hehe..then during bio also fun..cause i and sha disturb the pretty gal in our class..jean,hot sia her..haha..its fun when get to know her..talk non-stop..then during geron lesson i slept..idiot hafiz disturb me..haha..not fair,he sleep i didn't disturb..neva mind..there's tomorrow..then now i start to miss her..everyday in class keep looking at her..as days pass by,my feelings grows stronger and stronger..i start to miss her now..hpw i wish she's by my side now..but dream on im gonna get her..=(
tomorrow friday so fast seh..then sat and sun didn't get to see her..gosh!..
now eyes going to sleep but then cant cause have to study..everyday sleep around 2 plus and wake up at 5..sleepy seh..have to sacrifice,but then wad i study didn't go in my head..i dun understand..hmph..really need someone to teach me..k la..gtg..adios!!

Many feelings.....

2010-01-13T13:43:00.000-08:00

Today so fast thursday..till today still don't understand anything..even homework i copy only..then last tuesday phase test..i did ok..but i was damn nervous..face also nervous face..haha...then now about me and her..i dunno wad's happening..i hope u're reading this..first i wanna say thanks for everything..you still remember the 1st time,u are the one who add me at tagged..then u wanna get to know me..and we exchange msn and number..at days pass by,we decided to meet..then i was not myself cause i'm very shy so i mute..then we start to build feelings for each other..we wanna meet almost everytime..but i was busy with attachment..then i confess to you about my feelings..u did that too..then because we didn't meet and i was busy,u get to know that guy..minbo..then i heard u and minbo in a relationship..then i was very upset..but i let u go,cause i don't want to control you..but a few days later,u told me u can't take it to see me hurt..and u miss me..then after that we became together..then we were very loving..we go out and remember u bring me to meet ur family..i was so shy..then u told me that u hope next year is our year..then u remember the operation i told u..u didn't want me to go cause u cant afford to lose me as im ur life..then u want me to break up on the 5th and ask for patch on 6th of feb..cause u want our anniversary on dat date which is ur b'dae..it sounds ridiculous but since u want it,i can do that..but then y u changed?..why?..even if u wanna be straight,u can tell me..don't need to play timer..of cause i will set u free,as i say who am i to control u..im really disappointed with you..till today u didn't find me..ur ego is high..now i dunno wad's our status..if u want us to be over,i want u to say it..i dont want to say..cause i dun wanna hurt a gals feelings..2 times u did it to me..its enough..i dunwan the 3rd time..u told me how much u love me and care about me..1st day of school u msg and told me not to flirt around..but then u are the one..i noe u still have feelings for me,but u don't wanna tell me..cause ur facebook profile,still have ur picture with my name on it..shah property..so yah..i'm still waiting for u to say the words that we're officially over..where's all ur words gone??..haiz..actually there's more i can say,but i don't want..i dunwan to embarrassed u too much..i really love u,but then u hurt me deeply,and that makes me change my mind..cause im scared there will be a 3rd time..
then now my feelings for my crush even more..i love her..but im scared..cause i noe i cant get her..sigh....why i always being hurt..other butchs so easy..in a relationship for years..my members all..hmph...now im confuse..i will leave my gal..but i cant go on this way..gonna be hurt again..cause my crush is straight...too bad la shah..not ur luck..sigh...now i got so many feelings..stress,sad,hurt,confused even more..it seriously affecting my studies..i just try my best to cope it..

Stress and confused..

2010-01-07T04:45:00.000-08:00

Gosh!life sux now..so stress..Got new class advisor..luckily she's a great teacher..not strict..can laugh here and there..my sport and wellness teacher sux..i want my previous one which is my soccer coach..he's rox man..then from the first day of school till today i don't understand what my teacher teach and the subjects..got 2 projects..so stress..then next week got 1 practical test ready..so fast..haiz..in class me,liyana and my aishah has been creating a story about people..ahahaha..its damn funny..we adress them as rat and sting ray..ahaha..then now dunno what's happening to me and her..Dunno why she changed all of a sudden..this happen when she start schooling..guess she had been influence..why is she avoiding me also dunno..guess she have someone else..never mind..will find out soon..anyway now i really love her but i guess i got a crush on my classmate...just can't stop looking at her..hmm,miss my gal so much..hope she didn't change her mind..this sunday working again..kendarat..hmm,this time with my friends and my cuzz..hope it will goes well..

last day of 2009..

2009-12-31T00:46:00.001-08:00

today so bored at home..later at night going out with my cousins..countdown!!..today last day of 2009..many bad things happen to me in this year..many problems..hope 2010 is a nice year..then next year gonna work hard..cause i really wanna achieve my dreams..and to you my dear,hope we will last long..i really love you..can't wait for school to open..Can meet my friends..miss them so much!!

fun family..

2009-12-23T20:16:00.000-08:00

So fast today's Christmas eve..Yesterday had a great day with Gf..went out with her..then Gosh!im so embarrassed..she bring me to meet her family..they know about me but not sure if her dad knows too..they also wanna meet me..then her family treat me..go eat with them..her bro is so cute..hehe..she have a wonderful family..they really understand her..and her dad joke around..haha..then later going queensway..wanna go shopping..go with my cousins..then tomorrow maybe going out with her again..wanna watch alvin and the chipmunks 2..till here only..update again next time..=)

mummy's home..

2009-12-17T21:04:00.000-08:00

Yea!mum's home....yesterday fetch her from the airport..I was the loudest one to shout "Mummy!",ran to her and hug her when the moment i saw her..everyone look at me..hehe..some of them smile..i was too happy till i cried..hehe..yea,i love my gf so much!!she's really special..then now i'm pissed off cause my salary still haven't get..it's my 1.1 clinical seh..from april till now didn't get..WTH!!..seriously wanna bring my dad gomeet the HR ah..till our 1.2 clinical also finish..where can like that..we have to come to0 work on time,everything on time..u guys must also pay us on time ah..ni tak..stupid..yea,school coming soon..i hate attachment sia..boring..school can see hot chicks,meet my members and classmates..even better..and even better food..hospital so bored..everytime have to eat the same thing..haiz..today my gf got her result for her Nlevel..hope she pass..and can get in the same school as me..so i can see her everyday..=))

not in the mood..

2009-12-01T04:20:00.001-08:00

so long never post..been very busy ah..then there's so many probs..haiz..then now i'm missing my mum..cause she went to haji..1 month didn't meet her..then now im so hurt..i just can't understand gals..why must they do like that??..Playing around..haiz..hope she's happy with her decision..no mood ah to write..till here only ah..

idot gal..

2009-11-12T05:37:00.000-08:00

For the past days of working..ok2 ah..its just that im too sleepy and tired..but only today sux..cause early in the morning,someone stir up a honet's nest..stupid nurses..childish sia..when i came in to sign my attandence,got 3 stupid bitch sitting there..then one of them which is the bitch, say..

bitch:Is this a boy or a gal?..hmm,both la..
bitch friend:ish,no la..butch la..
bitch:haha..ish,wear wrong uniform..should be the guys one..then go attend to male patient..not female patient..later they u freak them out..
bitch friends:hahahahhahahaha...
bitch:ish,hair sux..like lazy to keep then anyhow cut..
then i angry ready..i bang the book that im writing..
bitch:ish,he angry..scary seh..hahahhahahaha..
then when she walking towards me,i say back in malay but here,i translate..
Shah:eh,wad sia..talk cock..early in the morning make people angry..think funny is it..childish..
then she turn behind..
Shah:sape makan chili,rase pedasnye..
then she stare at me..i stare back..don't give chance ah..

tomorrow go for simulation..yea!..can see hot gals..=)
now i have this gal who really love me..i guess i try my best to love her back..she's a great gal..i just go with the flow..yeah,damn tired now..gonna sleep soon..

unknown sickness..

2009-11-09T01:30:00.000-08:00

last friday night went home early..cause im too sick..ard 6plus in the evening,my heart beat damn fast,my both hands tremorring,shortness of breath..then my friends allow me to go home a bit early..when reach home,it got worst..my leg start to numb..i got palpitation ah..then mum bring me to the doctor..then the doc say,go to hospital immediately..then went to a&e..so i've done my ecg..its ok but only my pulse rate damn high..its 160..and my bp low..then was admitted..they took blood test and even chest x-ray..then my result was ok..then he also dunno why all of a sudden like that..he say maybe its panic or anxiety attack..dats y..then he only give me medicine to slow my heart beat..then now i call my sickness unknown sickness..yesterday mum do kenduri for her haji..then meet all my lovely cousins..then today sux for me..im still sick..but i just don't want to show it..and yea,about this butch thing..as im one of them,i am what i am..i'm being myself..i'm not acting to be like a man or something..and yah,im happy with the way i am..I don't have to step and really look so "good looking" like a pure boy..they way they walk,behave..i don't have to do that cause im used to it..only my features and hair..its ok..cause the way im being myself,people can tell that im a butch....i just be like this,many gals come to me..and yah,gals see from our heart and not by our looks..looks can be deceiving..so yah..don't compare2..cause u don't know them..only see by looks..but dunno their character or behavior..and yah,i'm different now..if people know me well,they will realized..anything,i just wanna keep quite..no use or arguing..cause i don't myself to get sick easily..then tomorrow afternoon shift..best ah,cause can wake up late..but then bored ah at this ward..pervious ward even better..at least can talk2 to the cleaner,syamsiah or even look at pink panther..hopefully can do skills seh here..

dark me..

2009-11-05T18:24:00.000-08:00

time is so fast and today is friday..today last day at ward 38..can't see her anymore..i call her pink panther cause her uniform is pink..then my skills still not done..only 2 skills completed..WTH!and on the 20th nov have to pass up..haven't finish seh..many i wanna do but cant cause teacher is not there..she wanna sign..aiyoo..then today my ttm dunno why she become like this..she only want us to be just friends..Bie,why u did this to me??..why??..answer me man..then i miss abby..really wanna know her more..but i don't want to put hopes on her..scared ah..then yea,my face is getting fair..back to its original colour..but my hands still dark..=(

past few days my friends all laugh at my dark face..haha..cause of sun burn..at the camera cant see clearly..but face to face then can see..haha..then yesterday im so wet cause on the rain..i don't have an umbrella..then ward sister ask me to change to scrub suit..cool ah..look like staff nurse..hehe..then next week work at ward 37..hope got many skills to do..

Freaking painful..

2009-10-30T06:06:00.001-07:00

Yesterday didn't go for my simulation training cause i got soccer tournament..ITE SC..then my own team was divided into 3 teams..so im in team 3..then my first match,i know i play very well cause i can play solo..then the other match quite difficult cause their defenders like hell..then got many chicks..hehe..hot2 sia..they look at all of the soccer players,especially the butches..hehe..then got some smile at me..Gosh!feel like replay back yesterday seh..hehe..then at last get the chance to talk to her..saw her face to face..i really have a crush on her seh..then i got new ttm..my soccer mate..she's loving and manje2..i like those kinds of gals..then yesterday my team got 3rd place,my other team got 2nd and 1st is ite west..Congrats to my team..cause all of them even me didn't expect to go that far..be in a semi-final..that's beyond our expectation..then yesterday went home with my ttm..miss her..then went home and immediately get changed and sleep..so tired seh..then today wake up,my whole body's cramp and so weak..really dont have the mood to go school..not enough rest seh..then i walk limping..cause my left leg hurt alot..i sprain my ankle,i got wound on my knee,my hamstring and groin area all painful..really muscle pain seh..then today go home with ttm again..now missing her badly..then tomorrow cousin ajak me to go wild wild wet..i want to go..but my body weak..and my wound is hurting me..neva mind..i see how it goes tomorrow..

soccer..

2009-10-26T01:46:00.000-07:00

last saturday my make up.. so damn bored..and the time passed so SLOW..haiz..then yesterday sleep late cause watch liverFOOL VS Manchester United..its ok..cause ManU still 2nd on the table..even on top of liverFOOL..and they wanna be so damn happy..haha..as if its the FINAL..Still have a long way to go ah..and we'll see when they play at Old Trafford..and liverfool neva walk alone,haha..as if will die if walk alone..haha..No matter what,i'm always a MANU FAN!..DIE,DIE MANU FAN..then today morning shift..ok2 ah..till today still didn't do any skills..aiyoo..tomorrow i change my shift with my friend...cause in the evening i got soccer..hope to be selected for the tournament..Gosh,tomorrow need to wake up early..lazy ah..haiz..

May his soul rest in peace..

2009-10-23T06:58:00.000-07:00

yesterday is a nightmare to me..my beloved lil cousin passed away..i was sleeping cause its still 8 plus in the morning..then i heard my mum and dad voice talking2..like shocked..so it wake me up..and i heard she said that Zubair passed away..My God,i was so shocked..im speechless..then tears start to roll down my cheeck..i cant believe this happened..its so fast..i really love him..i'm close with him when he's still in singapore..then straight away my family decided to take flight instead of drive there..but stupid,all was fully booked..even budget plane,SIA and M'sia airline..so too bad,have to drive up..then dad speed..bring 160 and above..we reach there around 3..then all of us cried..its a sad thing..i really pity him..but its good for him as he don't need to suffer ans he will surely go to heaven cause he has no SIN..he's a handsome boy among his siblings..then i kissed him many times..i really gonna miss him..then we drove off from there to go back to s'prore around 10 plus..arrived home around 2 plus..still same,dad drive speeding..we decided to stay 1 or 2 night there..but too bad,dad and sis cant take leave..then today lucky me afternoon shift..still tired..cause im sick too..if im morning shift,i guess i will faint in the ward..cause too tired and sick..tomorrow morning shift..i have to replace back the day that i'm off..Lazy sia!..haiz...I'm still sad now..hmph..Muhammad Zubair Ali Khan will always be in my heart and mind..

its so fun!

2009-10-19T02:27:00.000-07:00

yesterday night is so much fun..its a blast..i really love going there..feel like going again..and meet new hot gals..yesterday many gals crowd around..so fun..im not myself..then didn't get to sleep..so sleepy..then today went to school..get to see some pretty gals..but not many..then wanna meet the new"her"..hehe..i mean my new friend..but then can't..got no time..neva mind..i'll go with the flow..thanks to the party and i got to know her..she's friendly,cute..hope to know her more..hehe..tomorrow morning shift..i'm dead..gonna be sick soon..cause not enough rest..now i'm still feeling high..haha..cant wait to go back to school,cause wanna see her..=))

so fast sia time..

2009-10-16T06:55:00.000-07:00

time fly so fast..today 1 week of attachment ready..so tired and sleepy..tomorrow i don't feel like going out..tired ah..then on sunday morning my friends wanna meet to do our project..at 10 seh..Gosh,its early..guess this time i will be late..then after project need to go to work..kendarat as usual..after that i wanna go homeclub..then on monday go back to school..only for 1 day..go training at simulation in our sch..can see many gals...esp the office gal..i really wanna see her..miss her..if not,last time always play eye contact..she's cute..really wanna get to know her..lately i'm addicted to the drink Naughty'G' the cola flavour..everyday sia i drink..haha..dats y so horny..haha..nah,kidding..lazy to post..wanna go to sleep now..toodles=)

work,work,work!!

2009-10-09T20:12:00.000-07:00

yesterday morning follow mum go tamp mall and shopping..then went home and go out again..i follow my mum go jalan raye..then half way i have to go home..cause my bro alone at home and he's scared..Gosh!14 years already seh..still scared..aiyoo..his fault ah,and i cant follow..then later working..tomorrow also..aaaahh!!gonna be so tired..then on mon start attachment back..no rest seh me..how i wish holiday till december..kan best..hmph..now i'm still frust cause i haven't get my pay..for the previous attachment one..so late already seh..idiot!..hope by next week get my pay..so i can go shopping..=))
Till today she still didn't ask for forgiveness..haiz..she think she didn't do anything wrong i guess..i got to know that i and aishah have different shift with her..good ah..ego tinggi seh die..she say me but then she also the same..yesterday got an office girl add me at tagged..cute sia she..she's a bi also..but then she's attach..aww,miss the chance..neva mind..i try my best..=))

i want my handphone back..

2009-10-07T22:25:00.000-07:00

today woke up late..nice sia sleep when raining..so bored at home..Wanna go out but lazy..i miss my handphone..need to wait for 4 to 5 weeks..My God!so long seh..the spare phone also sux..i dunno how to use..uncomfortable ah..i want my handphone back..my handphone is being repair..now i lost many of my friends handphone numbers..Gosh!difficult to contact them seh..aiyoo..this week is the last week of holiday..next week start working back...alah,lazy ah..some more my pay still haven't get..frust sia!..next week dunno how we will be facing each other..for me i just wanna ignore her..she hurt me alot..theres a cut and it will heal,but there's always a scar..its not easy for me to forgive her easily..it takes time for me to recover..lucky me i'm not dead..i'm still alive..

just for you..

2009-10-07T01:05:00.000-07:00

these days my life sux..can't believe she did that to me..u told me that u love me and this is what u call love??..u lied to me..2 times of lies is enough..this is what u said giving me the happiness??..u can take back all of ur words!..i really pity aishah..can't believe that u can have the heart to hurt me and aishah..just because of one pathetic guy..come on lah,that guy belongs to aishah..and because of u,they broke up..don't u feel ashamed??..u can still contact with that guy..u can stop hiding..many people have been talking about u..just admit it that u're in love with that guy..u can say that u're friends..come on la,i'm not dumb..i'm not born yesterday..friends don't do that..msg each other all the time,every night talk to each other till midnight..aishah,his girlfriend also didn't do that..of coz contact each other..but not as much as u and him..u guys are too much..friends also have their limits..u can lie to other people but not me..i had enough of it..and even if they didn't broke up,u can still go out with him..only the 2 of you..Gosh!it's terrible..last time u told me that u love one of ur CCA guy..then u also told me that u don't love him anymore and u love me..then now u're in love with aishah's guy..WTH!!stop playing around with my feelings..i'm not a robot..i guess u didn't feel hurt before that's why u can go around and hurt people's feelings..haiz..my previous ex gal,before u is even better..even she hurt me,she can still understand why i'm really mad at her and even ask for forgiveness..u're,worst..u can still scold me back..eh,because of ur irritating msgs,makes me damn frust and say bad words to u..u're lucky ah that i only scold u by msgs..if other people i think will bash u up seh and even scold u face to face..but i'm not..cause i respect u..u say about respect,and i didn't respect u by saying u many bad words..dats my respect..Its ok aishah,there are many other guys who is even better than him..i'll always support u and stand by ur side....we just move on and go with the flow..if they are together,then they will get it from other people cause many people is by ur side and will condemn them..haha..It's really a sad thing actually,but i have to tell myself to be strong..i don't wanna get cheated one more time..twice is enough..Never mind,they did this to us,they will get it..i believe in Karma..What goes around,comes around..

birthday

2009-10-07T00:52:00.000-07:00

last sunday went to work..as usual me kendarat..then got artist..and my favourite fiza o..then this saturday and sunday have to work again..then on monday visit aslam..cause his dad passed away..may his soul rest in peace..pity him..then i'm so sick thanks to her..and to my dearest cousin..Happy Birthday!!

raye..

2009-10-04T02:07:00.000-07:00

last friday went to see my cousin..she's a model ah..she's so hot!!..then after that me and my other cousin can't make it for our outing..so i went home..then mum ask to buy things..after that meet nadiah for a while cause so bored..then saw aishah and sab..then aishah pull me and force me to go to nadd house and join them..paiseh seh me..cause im wearing normal t-shirt..then after nadd house i went home and get changed..then i follow them..went home about 11 plus..after that went to sleep..

results..

2009-10-01T21:07:00.000-07:00

today wake up early just to see my results..Yea,i passed!!..but my gpa sux..only 2.1..WTH!how to go paramedic seh if like this..now have to work double hard..then after that want to go back to sleep..but cant..then read novel instead..still sick today..eat medicine already..dunno if today going out or not..cause bored ah at home..yesterday meet her..had a great time..she noe,i noe..haha..anyway hope zubair get well..

i love him alot..

2009-09-30T21:29:00.000-07:00

just got home from Shah alam..we arrived there around 12 plus..i follow my uncle car..coz i love his car..Inside all manchester united logo..haha..dad and uncle bring speeding and got fined..haha..then when we arrived,all of my cousins,aunty and uncle welcome us..then i went straight to the room to see my beloved cousin who is very sick..i really pity him..i cried when see his condition..its very bad..how i wish he could live long in this world..when i talk to him,he could hear but cant even see me even though he open his eyes..he only can shake his head if he don't want something..then there's one part he cried..its really touching..i could imagine how his dad and mum would feel..all of us who visit him cried..even my lil cousin who is 4 years old cried to see him like that..when his family is in singapore and before migrating to shah alam,i used to be so close to him..always come to his house..and among his siblings,he is the most good looking one..still remember i always make him smile and laugh..i miss his laughter and sweet smile..yesterday i cant see those cause he cant respond..if he's gone,he will surely go to heaven cause he's still a kid and didn't have any sins..he is a good boy..he's strong too..he can bare all the pains that he's going through..he keep it to himself..i really miss the old him..now he cant even talk,walk,move,see,eat,laugh..i'll always pray for him..thought of going shah alam again after my bro finish his exams..i love him alot..hoping he could get well..and then yesterday also my aunty passed away..she only 24 years old..pretty too..haiz..may her soul rest in peace..i got many problems seh..so stress and depressed to see them like this..everytime there will always be a problem that will hurt me..i want her now..i want her by my side..haiz...

away from s'pore..

2009-09-28T06:38:00.001-07:00

tomorrow morning will be going to shah alam..to visit my cousin..Hopefully he get well soon..Don't know when will be back..

boring.....

2009-09-28T02:42:00.000-07:00

today so bored..in the afternoon wanna meet her to give something then she cant make it..hmph..then last friday my dearest cousin came to my house..then have been busy these days..just now went for interview..hopefully get the job..if i don't get it,i guess have to take the one that they offer me..so bored..without her,my life sux..i feel so alone..I'm different now..not the old shah..and tomorrow going out to jalan raye with them,i don't feel like going..cause no mood..hmm..lazy to write ah..hope to meet her soon..and i miss so many people right now..especially her..some more she's away..=(

fats..

2009-09-24T22:06:00.001-07:00

yesterday while playing comp,aishah call me..ask me to join the outing..so i did..we wanna celebrate diyy b'dae..but then.....so we enjoy ourselves..then we eat swensens..half way i go cause after maghrib im going out to jalan raye..yesterday sleep late..everyday have to sleep late cause have to wait for my sis to come home..aiyoo..then today wanna wake up late,mum wake me up early caused ask me to go market..aiyo..lazy ah..then have to go to tamp mart..then later wanna go cycling..wanna cycle the whole of tamp..wanna burn my fats..i tink im getting fat..haha..now

Bicara hati..

2009-09-23T22:38:00.000-07:00

Bukan aku pinta untuk jatuh cinta.Mungkin satu ketentuan bahawa kita memang telah dijodohkan.Aku takot kehilangan teman yang aku sayang dan kehadiran kau memang tepat pada masanya.Aku tak pasti sebenarnya!Adakah wajar tindakan kita dalam mencipta ikatan yang tidak pernah aku fikirkan selama ini?Tanpa kasih sayang seperti pasangan lain, kau dan aku bersatu!Jangka waktu yang kita ambil untuk menyempurnakan ikatan ini akhirnya telah menghanyutkan kita dengan perasaan sayang.Aku berjaya menempatkan perasaan dalam jiwamu dan kau telah mencuri hatiku ini tanpa aku sedari.Tetapi,mengapa mesti kita berjauhan hanya kerana sedikit rintangan yang datang dalam kehidupan kita?Mengapa harus aku menjadi mangsa perpisahan ini,seandainya kita perlu memendam kerinduan yang amat membebankan?mengapa harus aku merasakan semua kesakitan lalu aku lah yang memberi semua rasa sayang kepada kau.Jadi ,janganlah kau meninggalkan aku bersama-sama kerinduan yang hanya akan menjadi mikikmu.

just so confused..

2009-09-23T22:13:00.000-07:00

yesterday not a good day for me..cause fight with her again..hope she's reading this..hmm,its ok..since dats what u want,i respect ur decision..i've wait for u,give u so much time and this is what u give me..where's all ur words?..u said u'll always give me the happiness,and u told me and that guy,best man wins..and now?..u reject him,so i should be the one winning..but then what is this??..u ask me to let u go??..u've made me wait for u and this is what i get..i dah lame bersabar,give in..then ape lagi u nk??..why u did this to me??why??..hmph..all of my ex the same jgk..haiz...now i dunno if u really love me or playing around with my feelings??..

bored..

2009-09-22T22:56:00.001-07:00

yesterday sleep late..listen to misteri jam 12 as usual..then after that cant sleep..cause cannot sleep ah..i guess if put glue also cant close..haha..then today wake up late..baby wake me up coz she wanna meet me..immediately seh i go and shower..haha..then didnt eat breakfast i go out..mum curious,as if im gonna meet someone special..haha..ya,its special for me..then cycle to meet her..after that went home..now so bored at home..finding a job..i got 1 at ubi..but working hrs is
7 am- 3 pm..WTH!no way im gonna work..cause need to wake up early..haha..now planning where to go..at home play comp,watch tv,eat..boring seh..some more look at mum face,mum look at me..haha..only both of us at home..the rest work except for small bro go sch..now dunno what to do..guess talk on the phone..till here,lazy ah to type..adios!..

Hari Raye..

2009-09-22T00:42:00.001-07:00

1st day of raye need to ask for forgiveness..then all of them cry except for me..hehe..i only cry if ask for forgiveness from my nenek,cause i love her alot..then i force myself to cry when ask for forgiveness from mum..but too bad,i cant..haha..Hari Raye is so fun..got to meet my lovely cousins and get money..hehe..then now can eat already..no need to fast till next year..then today bored ah at home..cause dad,sis all working..then 1 st day when at night cousins all come to me house for hari raye..then we watch soccer at my house..noisy seh all..haha..When ManU goal only,all of us shout..haha..The match its really great to watch..then the last day of attachment which is on last friday,we play bunge api..haha..we celebrate..then not many people can make it..quite bored,but ok cause the noisy ones are there..then today maybe at night then go out..wait for dad all to come home first..hopefully i get a job soon cause im finding one..and yah im missing someone so badly..hope to meet her soon..=))
and yah,will upload the raye pics soon..=)

miss grandma!

2009-09-17T19:59:00.000-07:00

I miss my classmates alot..Attachment ok2 ah..yesterday took alot of pics..then today last day..got 3 weeks break and continue back..me and her ok2 ah..i didn't do anything much but only go with the flow..im happy now as me with my previous ex gal 'N'ok already..we became close friends..then tomorrow last day for fasting..then hari raye..me not into the mood as on last tuesday my grandma passed away..its so sad cause she didn't get to celebrate raye..Hmm,may her soul rest in peace..Gonna miss all my grandma...am i right?..as i always say that my life is full of sorrows..after one problem end,another one come..haiz...I have to accept the fact..Today afternoon shift..tired sia..then after work going to play bunge api with my friends..haha..like kids seh us..hehe..K lah,lazy ah to write some more..haha..

09/09/09 ..

2009-09-09T21:22:00.000-07:00

09/09/09 turned out to be a bad day for me..I was being rejected by her..Its unfair..because of one guy i also being affected..she love that guy too..MY GOD!how to love 2 person..u can only love one person what..then that guy also sound her on the 9/9/09..if she really love me,she can accept me what..then many times i ask if she really love me..she say yes..as her feelings is more this time on..then i guess she noe about 09/09/09 is suppose to be a happy day for me as i wanna ask for a patch up..then last min this is what she give me..she is confused cause of dat guy too..come on lah..who know u first..its me..some more we're classmates,u noe about me alot,my family background..then this is what i get..and yah,if u really sit down and think,u should noe that i've love u for quite a long time also..remember on march,when i'm still in a relationship nadd..i called u and ask eg if i gt feelings for u,wad will u do?..u say that u dunno..and see the situation..from there i start to have feelings for u..bt i tell myself not too as i have nadd..and only treat u as a sis..then when i run away from home..why did i go to ur house and find u..as i can go to my cousin house right..don't u ever think about that?..its up to u to think..i cant decide for u..if u want to confuse here and there,till next year u still like that..when i want u,i sound u for 6 times..after 6 times then i get u..i always sound people max 2 times only..but this is 6..cause i noe that i really love u..i love my previous ex so much..then i got to know the truth about her,i try to love u more..and my feelings grow stronger..and now,this is what i get..gals like to hurt guys feelings easily..imagine if we are the one who hurt them..i wander,what will happen..hmph..and i'm really sick..as my condition is bad to worst..then now what..worst to _ _ _??...Anyway now i want to let u decide urself..its not that i don't love u anymore..its just that i want u to really think that who is the one u should go with..that's all i can say..as im really hurt and disappointed with you..

lost..

2009-08-29T22:08:00.000-07:00

yesterday can't sleep..cause thinking about her.. Something bad happen to me yesterday..don't want to say about it ah..hmm..and yeah,ManU won ARSENAL..Even without ronaldo,manU still wins..it shows manU is the best..then to that person,no matter what,i'll always love u..I feel like wanna end my life seh..cz my life is full of sorrows..when i love that person,why i just can't be happy..im always sad,hurt..i have to do this to make u & ur sis happy..and yah,my condition is bad to worst..Now im just waiting for the right time..yah,i know its my fault..im sorry..i just can't go on with my condition like this..It hurts and its very painful..I'm lost..Don't know what i should do now..cause,i'm still in love with her..

im sorry..

2009-08-29T01:00:00.000-07:00

So long neva update..lazy ah to update..anyway this month is fasting month..and it have been challenging for me as i have to be patient and not hot temper..and yah these days i'm always sick,stress,sad,confused..many feelings ah..many things happened and many problems..haiz..Condition also worst..and yah,me and that person,im sorry if i have to do this..its for ur own good..i want u to be happy..i don't wanna be the reason for everything..i hope u and ur sis will be happy..i dont want u to think about me anymore k..its ok if dalam i merana and sedih..i'm used to it..bt as i say..if u're happy,im happy too..sigh......

I'm taken..

2009-08-14T02:07:00.000-07:00

Yea,mum is back home..she's recovering..anyway yesterday is a great + shocking day..i got to know everything about her..she lied to me alot..hmm,dun wanna say her name cause its really hurtful..then today is the happy day for me..I'm taken..love her..she deserve my love..and not the other girl..hope you will be happy being with me..and not confused anymore..Now u are my one and only..You mean a lot to me..I love you my new baby..

14/08/2009
13:00..

get well soon mummy..

2009-08-09T03:19:00.000-07:00

Im so stress,sad and worried now..cause my mum is warded in the hospital..so bored seh..I miss that person too..my new one..cant see for 3 days..then yesterday work..as kendarat..very tired seh..sleep also in the middle of the night,wake up..cause mind keep on thinking bout her..these days in class,cant stop looking at her..lazy ah to update actually..haha..a bit only ah..and yah,get well soon mummy..
If you love me,don't worry and care bout what people gonna say bout u or us..and hope u will be mine seh..cause i really love u..

stress ah..

2009-07-30T08:05:00.000-07:00

has been very busy..this saturday got practical test..then next week class test..stress ah..then with my project..aiyo..last friday went to old changi hosp..only we 4 people..hafiz ah scared..aiyo..then tomorrow going again..this time if he still scared,i don't care..wanna drag him..ahaha..has been sick too..today i got a bad sore throat ah..painful!!!..then even im sick,theres someone who cheer me up..new one ah..ahaha..can't tell who..coz she's very close to me..hmm,guess who??...she's cute,pretty,funny,manje2,understanding..=)..k lah,lazy ah to post..maybe after test..

stress,angry,hust,sad..

2009-07-21T07:39:00.001-07:00

last friday went to fort canning park..only me,fiz,liyana and her bf..its about our project ah..but luckily i didn't saw anything..then on saturday went to sentosa to celebrate din and kak ice's belated birthday..then on monday,i told her everything..neva mind..im strong..i guess so..hope she will live with a happy life without me around..then cant sleep that night..then just now in class so sleepy..less talks and laughters from me..should noe y..but i dun wanna show..hmmm.........

mendak seh..

2009-07-15T02:05:00.000-07:00

today in school so far ok2..fun ah..yesterday during project management,i got a msg from zila..then got to know its her friend that msg..told me that zila is in icu..shocked sia..cant visit coz so far ah..at kkh..then just now got msg that she had transfer to normal ward..then these days lazy ah to go school..cause so damn sleepy..just now sleep during combine lecture..hmm,still dunno who to ask to accompany me and my friends for my project..we doing about haunted places in s'pore..then many ppl cant make it ah..haiz....if my ex gal can,kan best..hmm..so bored now..lazy ah to update..anyway hope i can join my soccer back...

i love my upin..=))

2009-07-11T00:50:00.000-07:00

thanks to my adeq upin..she help me and ex gf..we are together back,but only as FRIENDS..we talk things out last thursday night..that night i cant sleep seh..cause still sad..then yesterday project management period,my group decided to choose the topic about the hunted places in s'pore..next week then we start on our project..then yesterday my teacher didn't come..then me and musfirah noisy in class..especially when hafiz disturb aslam..me and musfirah burst into laughters seh..then we kena sti infront..haha..then after school meet both mirah..lepak2 jap..then went home..at night went to cousin nikah..after that went home and im off to bed..too sleepy ah..today woke up late..then my family go out except me..i lazy ah..anyway still missing her and love her..

today sux to the core!!!!!!

2009-07-08T02:19:00.000-07:00

today is the worst day in school..many things happen..early in the morning,my ex make my blood boils..she msg me asking me to stop looking at her..cz her friends ask her why i look at her and ask to me to stop..WTH!!!!who sia them all wanna ask me to do that..my problem ah..my eyes what..stupid idiots..if dare,talk face to face ah..scared is it?!..cant believe seh she's like this..change alot..think of herself and her friends feelings only..if u dare,tell ur friends ah that im NOT ur cousin..y dun want to tell?..scared!..pissed off sia with her..Fuck ah!..then when behaviour science lesson at the MLT,C class sit behind my class..sebok ah..irritating seh the class..step fun..as if their class is united..fuck off ah..noisy only..especially one of the gal..dun wanna say her name..attention seeker seh..padehal many people irritated..haha..LOSER!..like monkeys seh..then when going home time,me,adeq and aishah we hold hands and ran down the staircase..then aishah fall and i fall also..i hurt my head..but im ok..today school sux to the core!..then my bro eddy wanna talk to her and ask for her num,she didnt allow me to give..y?..scared?..stupid..ah,lazy ah to entertain..u wanna go wif ur friends,go ahead ah..dun even dare to contact me or my friends anymore..esp adeq and mimin..tak yah sebok..coz i tkde sebok pn ngan ur kwn..later going to check up..confirm my condition worst..neva mind..i die also good..dun have to be stress..argh!!!

feelings!!!!!!!!

2009-07-07T05:03:00.000-07:00

yesterday eager to go to school cause wanna see her and my beloved classmates..but then it turn out in a sad way..i guess she's avoiding me..can see seh..my friends even say that without me telling them..cause its obvious..my classmates fun ah..love them..then today in school didn't see her..then my friend saw her n told me..so i look at her..i miss her alot ah..dats y i keep on looking at her..then we didn't talk..if talk also like a bit only..everytime i see her,she turn away..haiz...y did she do this to me??not enough hurting me??...stress u know keep on thinking about this..i tried not to but i cant..i don't know ah what u treat me as?..maybe a stranger or just a school mate?..definately not friend cause we don't seem to be one..u noe im being hurt badly....i just don't know what to do now..i don't want to let u go cause even if u hurt me,i still love u..i dont know how to make u return to me..hmmm...then luckily in class there's aishah to cheer me up..thanks dear..now no mood to go school anymore seh..see her only,feel like crying...haiz.........

school...

2009-07-05T01:15:00.000-07:00

yesterday went to pasir ris park..my sis friends organise a pit..then she ask me to follow..then i rent bike..me always with my bicycle..hehe..then i return the bike at 8.00..cause it says so..then i have to walk a long journey to the pit back..many "things" sia i saw..cause i can see mah..i was alone sia that time..have to walk all the way..pass by the mangrove..then i slow jog..far sia the place..then got many hot gals..but minah2 ah..pretty sia..=))
Yea tomorrow start school...can see my lovely classmates..miss then alot!..but then when start school,everything is different for me..cause im sgl and not att to her which is my ex gal..things won't be the same anymore..='((
neva mind..see how it goes..

stress!

2009-07-01T20:53:00.000-07:00

today at home..so bored..lazy ah to follow mum and dad..bored sia..only me at home..my big bro werk,my small bro sch,my sis werk..haiz..then yesterday meet zila at admiralty..then after that she go check up and i go meet narissa and rohani for a while..then wanna go to my cousin house,tak sempat..mum ask to go home cause wanna go out..haiz..sorry cuz...then at night gotta noe that zila was warded..haiz..stress ah..im worried seh..may she get well soon..Zila,pls dun avoid me..im sorry if im in the wrong..but u can't blame me..its the truth..hmm..yes im still in love with my ex,but u cant be mad..i noe u love me,but i just cant force myself to love u wad..hmm..maybe give me more time to think about it k..

miss...

2009-06-28T21:36:00.000-07:00

last friday is the last day of my attachment..aaaaah!!!..miss all of them seh..then we take pics..miss that moment..then last saturday night follow my cousins go club..but dangdut club..hahaha..now im addicted to dangdut songs..ahahahaha...then yesterday went to eat breakfast then go robinsons sale at expo..in the evening play soccer with my bro and his friends..then today wake up late..maybe later going out..yah,i miss "N" so much..love her alot...gonna miss her badly...

Birthday!

2009-06-24T20:36:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to my dearest Narissa!!Baru 17 pe?..haha..anyway ur present KIV ah..no time to buy ah..then today afternoon shift..yes ah..happy seh..woke up late just now..today is narissa and fiezah birthday..yesterday in facebook i search for syuhaidah and yah,i got her profile..happy!!=)
lazy ah to write..later at night i continue..haha..

Happy,Happy..

2009-06-24T02:55:00.000-07:00

today went to work and saw the board which nurse incharge of my team..then saw syuhaidah name..she's in the afternoon shift ah..so sad..then when aroung 8 plus nearly 9,teacher told me my results are out..quickly lie that i wanna go toilet..then i use my handphone instead..sis help me check my results..scared seh at that time..cause my teacher want me to get at least a C grade..i think i will get C or D grade..then sis told me i got B..my god!..I SHOUTED..so happy seh..proud of myself..thanks for my teacher's help too..everyone happy..teacher too..i cant believe i can really do it..Congrates to myself..haha..then in the afternoon,my patient want to go toilet..then i bring her ah..then both of us being disturb by "SOMETHING"..then i push the commode anyhow seh..wanna run away..she almost fell..haha..then she scared..so far today ok2..tomorrow afternoon shift!..so happy..can slack..haha..no need to wake up early..thats the best part..and yah,i love my ex gf soooooooo much!!!!!=))

wondering..

2009-06-23T07:08:00.000-07:00

today very tiring..yesterday i slept at 3.07 am..then wake up at 5.00..then overshot and wake up at 5.30..bath and then i accidentally sleep back..for 5 mins..haha..then i suppose to go out at 6..then i go out at 6.20 aroung there..then rushed to work..stupid ah..ronaldo neva fetch me..haha..he merajok cause i scold him when he go to real madrid..ahahaha..then i arrived i at 6.55..this time when i late,teacher can come early sia..when i early,teacher late..haiz..unlucky me..then shower the patient..do my skills ah..teacher see me do..then in the afternoon,when ex came..we talk2..happy seh to talk with her..just now we talk quite alot..haha..then when they doing report...me and apple write2 things on the paper..then my ex also join..she wrote something..got one letter that make me curious..wonder who's that person..tomorrow morning shift again..sleepy sia..lazy to wake up early..tomorrow hope syuhaidah work seh..miss her pretty & cute face..tomorrow hope like just now..me and ex gf do more talks..cause i really miss the old her,the old times..

When we're not together..

2009-06-22T02:58:00.000-07:00

When we're not together,
my thoughts drift alongside memories of you..
Things we've done,
the way u smile that helps me forget my worries & celebrate out wonders..

When we're not together,
my moods came into play more often,
and make me yearn for the strength,
i feel in u that the security,i find in your eyes..

When we're not together
i sometimes feel so very alone..
For myself and you
imagining you being without my loving feelings
as i am without yours...

When we're not together,
my best wishes still go with you always..
I seem to spend my time,wishing that we will get back together......

i'll always love you..

2009-06-22T01:57:00.000-07:00

last saturday at night went to swensens with family..sis treat us ah..i ate almond crusted lamb chops and my favourite sticky chewy chocolate..nice sia..then on sunday went to follow bro go cut hair..then me as usual with my bicycle,go rounding..till my ex gf block also..haha..then yesterday sleeep late..go chatting and neva see the time ah..when i see only,its already 2 plus nearly 3..then force myself to sleep..then go to work sleepy sia..come only and saw syuhaidah!..then suddenly not sleepy anymore..haha..then me in team 3..my ex also same..but too bad different shift..then my 2nd break is at 12.45..then saw her..miss her seh..feel like hugging je..then saw her finger..got ring..guess she's attached..think so..sad seh..haiz...='(

then today after werk,go smoke with my scandal..haha..nah,smoke with sheera..after that go lepak2 and went home..play with alisha..alisha can walk abit2..happy seh to see her walk..haha..till july only my mum will take care of her..cause her dad will come s'pore and fetch his family to go back to america..they will stay there..sad seh..cant see alisha and iman grow up..today guess cant sleep..thinking of her..even if she's attached,i'll still wait for her and love her..haiz...............

bingit siol..

2009-06-19T02:13:00.000-07:00

today in the ward ok2 ah..then my skills not complete seh..boring seh..haiz..then till never go for my second break..wait for teacher ah,cause wanna do skills but then neva do..all have to gather..idiot sia..then after the debrief,me and sheera laugh non stop..talk about the pondan..hahahaha..then when wanna go home,fifi pass her handphone to me cause she want songs from my handphone..so i see la..want to on the bluetooth..then when i come in only,teacher scold me and want me to pass my hp to her..she confiscate my hp ah..cause she say its still during working hours..WTF!..sign out ready sia..then went to the toilet and yah,very angry and pissed off..that anger is only 60%..my friends all ask me to calm down,but i didnt..cant ah..if only my ex was the one who talk to me and calm me down,i will relax a bit..then friends told me that teacher want to see me..then i look at her and i feel relax a bit..but still angry..then talk to teacher also i didn't see her face..i look at other place..now she know who's the real SHAH..not the timid and nerdy one..and yah,i cry cause im damn angry..im pissed off..i cry of anger..then she talk2,i also dunno wad did she really say cause i didn't hear..pretend only..haha..then went to smoke with alif and fiezah..after that went home with fiezah..cute la her..haha..and yah to my ex gal..i dun love fifi or have feelings of her..i cume kwn je ngn die..and she like manje2,so i also manje2 la..i love u..ONLY U..SHAH LOVE HER ONLY..her latest Ex girlfriend..miss u soooo much sayang..then now hand swollen cause i punch many things in the toilet..haiz...

get well soon sayang..

2009-06-18T07:53:00.000-07:00

yesterday fight,as usual injured also..cause get kicked and punch..then they wanna slash me bt then i move away so only get a bit..then my members all come down..best ah..i got 8 ppl and they gt 6 only..haha..dumbass..but then my group have to give in..they say no more fight..yesterday is the end..so hope they really keep their words..then today in hosp ok2 ah..but then i get scolding many times..till i stress and cant take it..then after my teacher talikng to me,then when i walk off,tears suddenly roll down my cheeck..paiseh ah sheera saw me cry..first time she saw..haha..then got one problem between me,my enroll nurse and one patient..stress ah..im involve..haiz...then when going home,saw my love one sick..im so worried..keep on thinking of her seh..till i oso sick..got slight fever just now n migraine cause just now stress and thinking2..till today keep on thinking about us..yea,tomorrow she same shift as me..happy seh..hope i can take care of her..sayang,hope
u're ok..get well soon..i'll always be there for u when u need or dont need me..i love u my dear..

2009-06-16T20:31:00.000-07:00

yesterday work ok2 ah..as usual tired..then one of the patient change ward ah..cant see the cute gal anymore..then need to wear ppe..can die seh..very hot..when i take out only,i'm soaking wet with all my sweat..eeee..disgusting sia..but what to do..no choice..then fiezah same shift as me till this week..happy seh..like to disturb2 her..haha..then tonight black wanna meet me..tired seh..after werk,straight away meet him..die ah me..confirm kena bash..yes ah...cant wait seh..i surrender ready what..i have to cause if not this won't finish..let him do what he want to me..
to the person i love,just remember that i'll always love you..waiting for ur return..=(
I dunno how many times ready i've say that..sigh...

Damn Angry!

2009-06-13T23:41:00.000-07:00

just now go shop buy bubble tea..then when i wanna went home,this taxi driver pissed me off..of coz i'm always with my bicycle..then i wanna cross the zebra crossing..this taxi speed and i have to immediate brake..use my leg also cause my bike brake not so useful..then my leg got small cuts..My God,the taxi driver..FUCK AH HIM!..hope he wanna speed right,he gets an accident..if not just now if i neva brake,i will get hit and will be paralyse..till now still my heart beat very fast..sheesh..no mood to write already ah..

ronaldo!!!!

2009-06-12T20:55:00.000-07:00

today woke up late cause yesterday to mj12..the story best2 ah..then today read the news paper..stupid sia ronaldo..what he do with paris hilton also dunno..stupid ah him..going to real madrid..neva mind,i still support manU..even he's leaving manU,he's still my idol..then yesterday went home around 10plus..cause after werk,went with alif and his members to smoke..took out nursing uniform only left my white t-shirt and nursing pants..scared if kena caught again..all of then also did that..then hang out and talk2..then went back home..today lazy ah to go out..but have to later..help my uncle..argh!..if i noe,i neva work with him..but neva mind..wanna earn money..hehe..cant wait to go ah..cause got kuda kepang..im sure wanna watch!!..then yesterday night while working..then got one patient relative,cute sia that girl..then we eye contact..hehe..look at her,she look at me..then i hang around at team 1..haha..luckily one monday i afternoon shift..can see that cute gal..hehe..But my ex gal is better..I miss her alot!!!..love her!!!...=)

lucky me..

2009-06-11T08:05:00.000-07:00

today woke up late..then before going to school,i smoke 1 stick only..while smoking,saw one mak cik saman walking towards me..i quickly throw it on the floor and step it..then neva move my legs..then i action2 call someone..she look at me one kind sia..as if neva see people before..when she walk away,i kick it and go to the bus stop..luckily neva get caught..after that took bus and meet aishah..went to cgh with her..today afternoon shift ok2 ah..then got one incident between me and sheera..haha..she noe,i noe..got one patient wife told her husband..there got male nurse and she point to me..paiseh seh..then i smile and quickly walk away..haha..they call me "mat"..haha..i keep on wondering..i wear the same uniform as the rest still cant see the difference meh?..aiyo..then just now saw azhar..then got to know his dad is warded..hopefully he come tomorrow..can talk2..so long neva contact him..after werk,went home with alif and smoke together..then went back home..yesterday after werking,went to ite simei..see my soccer mates..yea,sofie is there..miss her sia....esp her hair..haha..then come only,everyone ask "how r u? and how's u and ur gal?"..then i keep quiet only..then they noe y..the training yesterday is the ite combine ah..cause got students from college west oso..got some cute gals also..but not as cute as my ex gal..hehe..tomorrow i afternoon shift again..tired sia..hopefully tomorrow i can do skills..
And yah,i miss my ex gal soooooooo much even though i see her everyday..just cant get my eyes of her..

i want soccer ah...

2009-06-09T08:08:00.000-07:00

today in hosp..ok2 ah..but then still stress and angry towards someone..now ok2 ah..then just now play soccer with bro..yesterday evening meet my both friends mira..so long neva meet them ah..then just now keep on thinking about my soccer..i miss my lovely mates..i miss soccer...i want to join back ah...argh!dumb ass ah..i still wanna join ah..then now still thinking about my nursing..got 22 skills to do seh..i only do hw much..if not i fail seh..hiaz..feel like quitting seh...lazy ah to study..boring only..study,study,study..haiz.......and yah,to the gal i love,i dedicate to u this song..stay with me..still love u alot..but then too bad for me..everyday still looking at our past pics..miss it alot..haiz....

2009-06-06T21:54:00.000-07:00

today so bored..later meeting my lovely brothers..miss them ah..then yesterday work..tired ah sia..leg cramp seh..then at night dun wanna follow fam,still have to follow..pissed off sia!..then msg some people also..make my blood boil only..haiz...then my condition sux ah..don't want to talk much ah these days..then that day go to springfield..meet my lovely marines and friends..but my marines not complete ah..kubi and irwan is not there..miss them alot..then i and beng laugh alot again..haha..miss all the fun that we had in the past..haha..then tomorrow dunno wad shift..morning or afternoon..then these days my family members and some friends say that i'm ego and my old behaviour is back..such as hot temper and cant be patient..wad sia them..i see myself normal only..ah,neva mind ah what they wanna think about me..as long as im happy......

exams over!

2009-06-04T08:05:00.000-07:00

at last exams are over!...the paper ok2 ah..then yesterday go springfield meet my lovely mates..miss them..then as usual me and beng laugh alot..till our stomach pain..haha..the topic is about......she noe,i noe..haha...then today when at home,then suddenly blood come out from my nose..then dad bring me to kkh..as usual..and check up also..then my migraine condition SUX!!!!...i dun wanna say about it..then till today i've wondering where's black?..when i want him,he dun have..when i dun wan him,he appear..stupid ah..neva mind..i'm still waiting for him to do what he want to me..can't wait for the right day..

what a tiring day

2009-05-30T20:37:00.000-07:00

yesterday after going to wild wild wet,i go tamp mall for a while to meet one of my friend..Many people sia at there..then wanna swin a bit difficult..then after that me and bro went to the majlis that we're suppose to work..then when we arrived,we eat..then they called my name and ask me to help..so i helped..we went back home at 11 plus..the wedding finish at 9pm..tired sia..then today around 1 plus,going to cousin house to celebrate his birthday..haiz..no time to study seh..a few more days to exams..i'll just do my very best..

nasib adik beradik...

2009-05-29T07:31:00.001-07:00

at last friday already..tired sia working..then just now after work,rushed to school cause study with my teacher..then cant concentrate that well cause im tired..then tomorrow also i wont be studying..then after that went to cgh back cause visit alisha grandma..then tomorrow have to wake up early again cause going to wild wild wet..its a family day..but my family not going causegot something on..then if not tomorrow im working..got wedding and i work as a kendarat..i want money also..both also i wanna go seh..but neva mind..i go wild2 wet cause long time neva go..then today heard the bad news..pity my sis..to the bloody guy..don't u dare to hurt and play around my sis feelings..u think fun is it to do that..eh,u dare to do that,langkah mayat aku dulu ah..if u hurt my sis,it means u hurt me too ah..cause i cant bare to see my sis crying all night..i've been hurt badly too dats y i will know how painful she will feel..after my nenek is gone,my sis and my life changed alot..got many problems..then no one to share our problems..sad sia..miss nenek alot..then today at the ward,funny sia syahirah..she made my laugh non stop..only we know what happen...hahahahahahaha...then i passed my 2nd test..yea!..im so happy..hope i will do well in my coming exams..now my mind is thinking about her..i miss her too..seeing my sis in that kind of condition,reminds me about what happen to me too..haiz...ini lah nasib kite...sigh.........

I miss u Gal....

2009-05-28T07:36:00.000-07:00

today very sleepy and tired cause yesterday afternoon shift then today morning..then wake up to watch soccer..then i woke up late..i see the score only then i get back to sleep..luckily neva watch..if not waste time..haha..neva mind,ManU still the BEST!then today ok2 ah..saw her as usual..miss her sia..especially her hug..then visit nenek iman..pity her..she's now in ICU..hope she get well soon..i'm missing someone so badly..

very tired..

2009-05-26T19:52:00.000-07:00

it has been a busy and tiring day for me..today last min dun have revision with my teacher..then today afternoon shift..tomorrow morning shift..my God,gonna be very tired seh..then still have to study for my exams next week..hopefully i pass..i miss going to soccer training..especially my lovely soccer mates..love them alot..and to this gal zyla..i'm sorry..i just cant force myself to love u..u're a great and decent gal..but i just dun have the feelings..cause i still love my ex gal..my feelings for her is so strong..u should know that..i'm really sorry..
I miss and love my ex gal alot..i don't know now u anggap me as wad??..friend?best friend?special friend?ttm?a stranger?or enemy?...haiz...i guess im only a stranger to her..u should know why i say that..if you dun know,ask me..

And to this friend of mine INKA..happy advance BIRTHDAY!
scared tomorrow no time to wish..May Allah bless u with happeiness and long life..hope u succeed in ur life and may u pass ur exams..

miss perak trip..

2009-05-22T21:06:00.000-07:00

yesterday afternoon shift..ok2 ah..then me and one of the staff nurse go behind and talk2..bored seh..then yesterday cant go for the passing out parade in springfield sec..my npcc ah..miss them sia..then suddenly think about the perak trip last year..fun seh..especially when me and my marines had a hot topic..haha..they should know what is it..then at that time also celebrate my birthday..fun seh..miss my marines!!!then today lazy ah to go out..and yah,i really miss that gal..cant get my eyes off her..till today i'm still jealous if she look2 at guys or anything..feelings for her is so strong ah..i setia to her only..cant wait for monday so can see her..love her so much!!!

Adam Lambert!!!

2009-05-20T19:50:00.000-07:00

yesterday so damn tired..im so happy i can do the bio test..and the first test i pass!!then today woke up at 7.30..go and bath and at 8 watch american idol..I woke up early to watch that..then the result sux sia...I want ADAM to WIN!!!but kris win..what the hell!!..they don't know how to vote sia..if singapore also can vote,i think many will vote for adam..including me..Neva mind,Adam is always the best for me..My favourite song that adam sing is mad world..nice ah his voice..Today afternoon shift..lucky me..Then tomorrow i afternoon shift again..bored ah,cause i cant got for my NPCC passing out parade..cant meet my lovely marines..neva mind..will meet u guys soon..And i love my ex girlfriend soooooo much!!!I'll always wait for you...

damn tired!!!!!!!

2009-05-19T06:09:00.000-07:00

yesterday went to ward 49..my god!so boring seh..i miss my ward 46...today so tired..damn fucking tired!!!!...yesterday didn't sleep well..can't sleep also..something happen ah yesterday between me and this gal..then today morning shift..tomorrow my 2nd test..im dead..not prepare ah..hopefully i cn pass..i'll do my very best..then just now vomit at my own pants & sofa..yucks..im still sick actually..hehe..lazy ah to talk much today..no mood..

nice pants..eee..yucks!

Glory,glory ManUnited!!!

2009-05-16T19:38:00.000-07:00

Yesterday evening went to the s'pore flyer there to watch manU match at the big TV..many people sia..but many ManU fans than arsenal..then im very noisy..hehe..ManU players get the ball only i shout"Go manU,u cn do it..."when arsenal get the ball i shout"booo"..haha..then when the match finish,manU won the title again..i,my cousins n brothers all stand up and shout2..got mat2 also do that..then got some uncles and aunties,they only look at us and laugh..they shy ah..then went back home around 11 plus nearly 12..today maybe going to hospital to visit my sis's friend which is my friend also..she met with an accident..she's in ward 46..hopefully if i go,syuhaida working seh..hehe..other people easily can warded in hospital seh..but me,very difficult seh...
Fucking happy sia yesterday cause manU won!!!!
And to anyone who say many bad things about ManU,its just that they're jealous and sore LOSERS..even ManU lose to arsenal,liverpool,or chelsea,manU still wins the title..ManU is too good..
And yah,to that person,i wanna noe..wad am i to u????....

ManU is the best!!!

2009-05-15T19:38:00.000-07:00

Today Manchester United VS Arsenal!!!..hopefully manU wins..but if draw also can cause ManU still win the title..if manU wins,today can get their trophies!!!..then today still got fever..then go poly in the morning to check my wound dressing..Luckily go early..if not many people and have to wait..And yah this monday attachment start back..sad seh..not in ward 46 again..cant see syuhaidah!!!!!!...=(
this time male ward..boring je..cant wait to see Nadd....miss her alot seh...I love you Nadrah...Give me a chance syg..pls....I dedicate to u the song wait for you by elliot yamin..That song is for you..

sick again...

2009-05-14T22:28:00.000-07:00

yesterday go to school early cause got revision in school..then i end at 4..in the evening watch american idol..Stupid sia..they dunno how to vote..i want danny and adam to be the top 2..then the result yesterday is kris and adam is in the final..pity danny..kris sux sia...Next week,i hope,wish and want ADAM to win!!!!then today wake up only..got a terrible migraine and high fever..difficult to wake up seh..after bathing,i vomit at my own pants..yucks...then mum sponge me with cold water cause my temperature is 39.8...like wanna faint sia..haiz...
and yah,im in love with this gal..we have many things in common..
same dad's car but different colour,same school & in same course,same handphone but different colour,same race,same birthday month and many more ah.....really in love with her..i wonder who she is???...

Adam Lambert!!!!

miss her...

2009-05-13T08:25:00.000-07:00

tired ah...today go to school cause got revision with teacher..then saw her..she's hot..really miss her damn alot..then after that my concentration gone seh..i forget what i learn..then kena scolding with teacher..hehe..then today tired so neva go jogging..then just now went to adeq upin's house..take bio notes..then kene interview with her mum..paiseh seh..hehe..then sleeping late cause wanna hear my miseri jam 12..but before that i study also..so i don't waste time..tomorrow got school revision again..

what am i thinking??....

2009-05-11T21:32:00.000-07:00

today bored ah..alisha gt fever,i also have..then black dont have yesterday..i want him to have cause he got weapon..only aliff,remy n fauzi...only kena bashed yesterday..then today..only wanna go lepak2...and yah..for my bio..i study2,also neva masok otak..im gonna fail again..think so...cause wad i study,neva go in....then just now when my hp got msg..when saw the name..i was shocked..thought it was my eyes seeing the wrong name..that person still remember me..thought she had forgotten me..neva mind..i wanna keep quite..make her miss me..but i don't think she will miss me..life sux ah...feel like ending je..haiz...things wont be the same anymore..anyway to dat person,u know lagu "pesanan buat kekasih",i dedicate it to u..listen to the lyrics..its for u..I really love u..Dunno wad else to do to melt ur heart..its not use also..everyday cry,injured...mati kn bagos...Mcm nk commit suicide je..i also dunno wad im thinking of right now...sigh.....Nad,NAD!!!i want u back...i really love u..i cant live without u...Pls syg...pulang..come back to me...Jangan buatku begini...pls syg..

days by days getting injured..

2009-05-10T22:24:00.000-07:00

yesterday went shopping with family..then mum and dad went out in the evening..i take the chance to go out..then saw aliff..my enemy too..black friend..then he calling someone..i think balck..then he step to smile at me..thought nothing happen..then he step & kick my fingers..My god!!!salah urat..my finger at the end one,cant bend sia..really painful..then sis called me to ask me to return home..cause mum and dad on the way home...so i just run as fast as i could..and aliff also run to catch me and know wad block i stay..but too bad..im fast enough..then i told mum dat my finger hurt cause i knock against something..then later going out again..meeting aliff..he wanna bring black,bring ah..im not scared..then today alisha got high fever..pity her..luckily she's a strong baby..never cry everytime..then tomorrow going to polyclinic cause of my migraine and my stomach, and my finger..my abang sedare accompany me..can't wait to meet aliff later..nothing can stop me cause no one can protect me like last time..Days by days i'm getting injured....I love her la..I love NADRAH.....haiz.....NADD,NADD.....

before meeting aliff

This is how i will look at people..

black,find me!!!!

2009-05-09T00:01:00.001-07:00

today neva go out..lazy ah to follow my parents go shopping..then my wound at my stomach is getting worst..i just have to leave it like that..pain sia when clothes terkene my luke..kadang2 termelekat..ouch,it really hurts..then today try to study..my GOD!!cant concentrate sia..what i think i also dunno..thinking of someone ah..going out later..wanna smoke 8 sticks...then danny just now called..told me that black recover already..yes ah!!!come find me black!!!come...u can do anything u want..i surrender myself....=)

miss my sec school mates..

2009-05-07T21:49:00.000-07:00

yesterday night go jogging..tired seh..today muscle pain..then today wake up because the sound of the thunder..later going to the gym or play soccer..bored ah at home..but i think i wanna play soccer cause meet my members..all injured but still play..haha..i still have fever..sheesh..eat obat ready still no use..yes ah,my wound on my stomach n leg is getting worst..padih ah..but i dun give a damn..i miss my sec school mates....especially izzat with his lame jokes..haha..

don't care..

2009-05-06T23:33:00.000-07:00

today wake up late..then got fever..lazy seh to wake up..then miss tan and miss rafika called..ask about me and my paper yesterday..so caring..then my bro didn't school today..later going out and play soccer with bro..bored ah today..leg still injured because of the cuts..dont care ah if im sick or wad cause soccer is my life..hehe..dunwan to take care of myself anymore..what ever going to happen,happen lah..

hope i pass my bio...

2009-05-06T01:05:00.000-07:00

yesterday night..i just hate that part..wad i mean is that night..then watch soccer..YEA,MANU WON!!!!....then in the morning,went to school for bio test..went with narissa..send her to the bus she taking to school..then bio paper,cant concentrate seh..then after that went to eat and went back home..hopefully i and adeq ira pass...then today got fever,cough,bad sore throat,migraine..got bad sore throat cause i smoke 9 or 10 sticks..after for years didn't do that..haiz...now,i just don't know what to do now..i see other couples easy seh patch up back..so jealous seh...why we cant be like that..haiz..

cant forget about her....

2009-05-06T00:48:00.000-07:00

The date, that she had left a marked in my entire life. The date, that she accept me, for to be in a relationship and to be with me in joy and laughter, and in tears and pain.

As days past by, my love to her grew, grew and grew. Makes me wanna be with her forever.Falling in love is so beautiful, the feeling that not always u feel every day. Every secs, every mins, every hour, wen the clock needle makes tick-tock-tick-tock, makes me tinking about her and every days and nites, makes me wanna be with her all by her side. She was my strength, she was my world, she was my everything. I will do anything for her. Anything. When she was not with me, she makes me worried, she makes me tinking, wat was she doing...??? Till she text me, i am so happy, knowing that i was waiting for her messages. When i was with her, she makes me forget about time, forget about people around me and forget about the world, make it like our own place, our own world, filled with love. Does it sounds beautiful when you are in love...???

Of course, in every relationships, there are problems between both parties for having misunderstanding, third party ruined your relationships, shouting (raising voices) to each other, not being serious, taking tingz or probz easily, and i guess that, there are more probz in a relationships will have than what i have mentions above. It is up to an individual to mould your relationship on how you wanna your relationship to be and how you wanna to have in your relationship.

Returning to my love story with her, i had done my part, i have sacrifices my time, and done more than what i could. She ought to know how much i love her. Nothingz going to change my love for her. But why i was left by her...??? 7th april will be the date marked in my life. She is not for me to forget, but to remember. I will not keep her in mind coz mind will forgetz but i will put her in my heart coz i will not stop loving her as my heart are beatting and i will stop loving her wen my heart stops beatting.

Wat i have done till she left me??? She knew i love her more than everything and miz her more den anything and anyone. I have been crying every nite tinking of wat i am afraid of, losing her, did happened and had alredy happened. Do i deserved this??? Letting her go is so difficult and i do not know wat else i can do to win her heart back. I am not used to live without her. Feels like therez sumting incomplete and missing in my heart.

When she is not wif me, am crying... My heart broken into pieces juz like a crystal wen it fell n broken. None can fix a broken crystal. I am so in love wif her. I have no where to go, i have no one to talk to, the one i love has leave me and will never return to me again. Till now and forever i will love her and she will be in my heart always. Am sure no one out there will love her like i do and always.

stupid bangla..

2009-05-03T21:14:00.000-07:00

today wanna wake up late but alisha wake me up..then heard the sad news..sis fail the driving test again..='(..pity her seh..stupid tester..she drive ok ready seh..even the trainer says so..but the indian tester fail her just because she need to change lane late..stupid bangla..i heard also fed up sia..then tomorrow need to got to school cause revise with teacher..my stomach hurts ah..cause of the fight..anyway to this 2 gals,im sorry..i love my ex gal alot..there are other butch who is better than me..and yah,my cuz khai..i love u alot cuzz....miss u too..yesterday we meet..ur laughter really makes me laugh..hehe..and yah,NADD...i miss u badly........

Khairul Ariffin!!!!